Dying

[JoeyBananaduck]

Well folks, here I am sat with my cat on my knee. My wife has walked out spouting all kinds of nonsense - I'm convinced she's schizophrenic or has some kind of personality disorder but she won't do anything about it. You never know whether you're waking up to 'I love you forever, you make me so happy' or 'I hate you, I'm glad you're miserable, why don't you drop dead?'. I don't have any friends anymore because of her paranoia. Wasn't even allowed to listen to music anymore because she doesn't 'get it'. I'm basically having a few cigs and then getting ready to say bye byes. Sad eh? No one fret, I don't have any kids or owt. I'll miss the cat though. Well, I don't suppose I'll actually be around to 'miss' anything. I like you lot a lot though. I wish I could give my spare life to the fella who's ill. Doesn't work like that more's the pity. Anyway sorry for this and thanks for being lovely company, I've really enjoyed this site.

[canadagoose]

Please don't go. I like your posts, although that won't be much consolation. You can live without your wife. I really don't know what to say but please find some help.

[JoeyBananaduck]

I've tried mate, I really have. I appreciate the sentiment a lot. I'm just really tired now.

[Blinder Data]

Mate, whatever you're planning please don't go through with it. Suicide is never the answer

Call 116 123 or email jo@samaritans.org

Talk about how you're feeling with someone who's trained to help, don't rush into this thing

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. There are things to live for.

[Gregory Torso]

Joey.

Don't.

I don't have the real words to try and talk you out of it. But I've been where you are, and I'll bet lots of others have too.

Hold on a while.

[Barry Admin]

It'll pass, don't do anything silly.

Can't you just get rid of the wife and keep the cat?

[poo]

WE NEED YOU IN HS ART. You ain't going anywhere mate. Stay put and keep it real. Please, please don't bugger off or worse.

[checkoutgirl]

I've tried mate, I really have. I appreciate the sentiment a lot. I'm just really tired now.

Please don't die. And we love you.

[Janie Jones]

You never know whether you're waking up to 'I love you forever, you make me so happy'

It might be that tomorrow, Joey. This will pass. Stay with us for a bit longer.

Not every patient in mental health services recognises they are ill. There's loads of help you can access even if your wife refuses to admit she has a problem. Surely you need to stay around to do that for her and if she hates you as a result, well, what have you lost? You might be able to save her though. Ring MIND
0300 123 3393
info@mind.org.uk

[Barry Admin]

I don't know your wife, and this is very presumptuous, but you may want to read something like this: https://www.amazon.co.uk/Hate-You-Dont-Leave-Understanding/dp/0380713055

Bit more productive than topping yourself anyway. Say goodbye to slush puppies, cups of tea and good music. FOREVER.

[Sin Agog]

Not sure I should make this post as I'm a bit of a cack-handed idjut, but go check in at a hotel or stay at a relative's as soon as possible! You're still under the influence of the poison from a toxic relationship.  I wouldn't trust myself to buy the right brand of toilet paper in that frame of mind, let alone make a decision of that magnitude.  You will find yourself again.

[jobotic]

What Gregory said.

Where you will be in a year from now will be so different. And a year after that. Five years. Five years ago. Ten years ago.

Life changes so much and how you feel now will be a memory, even if it is very very hard to see that now. How I was feeling three years ago is a memory, bit of an upsetting one, but nothing like reality now. At the time it seemed impossible not to feel like that.

[Lisa Jesusandmarychain]

Divorce the wife, stay alive. Job's a good 'un.

[Isnt Anything]

Please dont you are a great poster and seem to be a thoroughly worthwhile human being.

Sounds to me like you just need to ditch the wife and rediscover the joys of life without a loony, to be blunt about it. I ended up with one of those for a while, escaped, things improved immediately.

As has been said suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Most suicidal people don't really want their lives to end, they want the way they are feeling to end. And given time, the way you are feeling will pass. Try reading this: https://metanoia.org/suicide/

Please do stick around. I'm sure the cat would miss you too.

P.S. You said you are so tired .... also not a good time to make such decisions. We all go through those bleak 3am-type 'whats the point' moments, the trick is not to give into them. Much love.

[Paul Calf]

Your wife is ill. If she won't get help, you need to protect yourself. The Samaritans or Citizens' Advice (the other CAB) will be able to help.

Obviously, don't die.

[Small Man Big Horse]

So sorry to hear that everything's so horrendous right now Joey, but as everyone has said, please don't do this. I've been suicidal in the past but have contacted my doctor and each time I've been given the help I've really needed, and a few months down the line I've been so pleased I didn't do anything.

Plus you're a incredibly funny fucker and the world needs people like you more than ever right now.

[Funcrusher]

Divorce the wife, stay alive. Job's a good 'un.

All the advice on this thread is quality. This will pass and you'll be fine. I was virtually a basket case at the end of last year due to crazy workplace bullying. I quit and am currently sat in a cafe drinking top notch decaf, reading a book and planning a creative project and life is good. Flouncing from life isn't a good look, so don't be doing that.

[Alberon]

Take the cat and leave. I know they act like aloof bastards 99% of the time but it would miss you. And so would we.

Your life is not fucked beyond the point of saving. There's no shame in making big changes to your life.

[Barry Admin]

Anyone got his real name? Seems to be near Leeds, can't find him on Facebook.

[thugler]

Please give it some time and things will change, there is help out there for you and your wife. Get some professional help immediately.

[bgmnts]

Is he dead?

[Alberon]

Between the two posts on this thread he made a quite normal one about not being arsed about Indiana Jones V.

I hope this is just a bad joke.

[massive bereavement]

Why bow out now when there's WWIII to look forward to?

[Barry Admin]

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[Barry Admin]

And if anyone has his real name then you need to let me know now by PM so the police can give him a welfare check.

[holyzombiejesus]

And if anyone has his real name then you need to let me know now by PM so the police can give him a welfare check.

Did he contribute to Serge's fund? Would that have his real name on his paypal address?

[Barry Admin]

Already checked that.

[Danger Man]

Did he use a real email address to register here?

Might provide some clues if he did.

[Steven]

Between the two posts on this thread he made a quite normal one about not being arsed about Indiana Jones V.

I fear being reminded of that scene of Shia LaBeouf tarzanning-it with a load of monkeys through the jungly-tendrils may have exacerbated matters.

[Danger Man]

There's a poster with the same name here

http://www.mygnrforum.com/profile/64986-joeybananaduck/

Maybe contact the admin there to see if they know anything?