I'm mentally better than I was earlier this year :)

[Noonling]

I'm really glad this place exists for people to vent and I hope people continue to find it valuable to talk through their issues (however silly they may feel), but I thought I'd make a thread about feeling better!

I was pretty damn awful earlier this year. I'm no good at discussing emotions, but yeah... The lowest place I've been for maybe 15 years.

I switched meds after I was at my lowest point as I feared they had started to make me worse. I've never felt entirely sure that meds work for me - they certainly aren't the miracle some people find them to be, but I always seem to function better on them than the few times I've tried not being on them. I also tried some counselling, which I can happily say was useless - I do not believe my MH is rooted in any trauma, nor do I have any anxiety or low self-esteem to fix (weird for someone with depression, I know), and while the woman I saw was lovely it would have made no difference if I left the house once a week to speak to a brick wall.

BUT... I've been getting better, through time and effort (and meds and vitamins). I got good enough to be employed again and now I'm a month into it with no issues! I eat more food than before! I no longer lie moping in bed until my bladder is close to bursting! I started keeping a daily track of my moods via Daylio and while it is mostly apathy (this month so far: 3 good days, 12 apathy, 1 bad) it's not an uncomfortable apathy, and the bad has been obviously much reduced.

I'm almost back to my normal level of functioning - its still lower than most people's level and I guess it always will be, but I am still really pleased (maybe even a little proud?) that I've bounced back.

[The Boston Crab]

Well done, champ. Keep on beastin.

[Buelligan]

And keep thinking and feeling good about what you've achieved, it's a virtuous circle and a beautiful and healing bit of kit.  And telling other people about it spreads the goodness too. 

[Glebe]

Nice one man, keep it up!

[Pingers]

Good to hear, it's always very positive to hear when someone has managed to claw their way further from the abyss. I don't know how your winters normally go, but if they are not great then it's one of the few things I feel I can give advice on. Keep at it!

[weekender]

Hang on, that's four positive posts in a row, can't be doing with that.

It'll probably rain tomorrow, and you won't have checked the forecast and won't have taken an umbrella to work.

[Small Man Big Horse]

That's great to hear good sir, and long may it continue.

[pancreas]

Have you considered trying to tear yourself apart?

[Twit 2]

I reckon you should just fucking treat yourself.

[Cerys]

Fantastic news!  Have a huge Welsh hug.  It's huge.  It's Welsh.  Have it.

[RoadMaintenanceTycoon]

So glad to hear you're doing well OP. Well done

[Gregory Torso]

Nice one Noonling mate

[Lisa Jesusandmarychain]

I'm happy for you, Noonling.Long may this state continue ( your being in a good place mentally, not my me being happy for you for a long time, I'd be a right soppy cunt, then ).

[Jockice]

Good.

[Noonling]

You can't give a single word response to that, otherwise it looks suspicious! It at least needs to be jazzed up with a .gif!

[NJ Uncut]

I'm better at being mental than I was earlier this year.

Or,

I'm earlier at being better than I was, mental this year.

Or
..

Aw fuck this. Glad for you OP!